God, I love the smell of BLEACH. Yes, my house is filled with it right now. It makes everything smell clean.
I spring cleaned the house while Mahmoud was away at a conference in Baltimore. It felt fabulous to wake up on Thursday morning in clean sheets next to my husband, tables & counters clear, room organized, living room clear of toys, and a ridiculously clean shower with new caulking-- Well, atleast for one morning. Today, there are toys and the kitchen sink is full of dishes.
Besides cleaning, I am also applying for a Masters of Social Work through various schools online. I haven't picked the third quite yet, but so far, it's UND and BU. I hope to do BU's because there are no specific class times. I CANNOT WAIT to be taking classes again.
AND GOD KNOWS I CAN DO IT... especially now that I'm going on night #3 of a FULL night of sleep. That's right, miss Gabi is sleeping in her crib in the girls' room and she IS SLEEPING ALL NIGHT!!! Yes, we can and should all dance around and know that I will start feeling like myself again...
Speaking of that, it makes me wonder--- do I want to "return" to my self-- or is it the old me I'm clinging to that is holding me back? Hrm. I am who I am right in this moment... not who I was before kids. I am what I do every day in each moment.
So tonight, I'm going to bed at 10, and I'm gonna feel amazing come Saturday. I'm going to finish writing my personal statement- no matter how hard it is. I'm going to be patient and kind with my kids.
(I was "busted" watching the Bachelor, so what the heck--- And Courtney from the Bachelor- you should read my words. You are who you are in this very moment.)
This weekend is chalk full of fun... in 1.5 hours I'll be at the mall watching the kiddos play with my best friend and her kids & then out for lunch. Saturday is my little cousin's 17th birthday in Thief River Falls. I think all my extended family is going, so it'll be fun to see everyone. I just hope Julianna is good. And I hope my other cousin is nice to my mom.
